December 30, 2009

So I've been feeling like a complete wreck lately and most of the devastation occurs during the late hours of the night. (of course) I don't know what I'm going to do to fix it, but I'll fix it eventually. (nevermind that I've been trying to do that for the past year or so) At the moment, I feel like the biggest problem is the lack of feeling needed. TSA is gone...until I (hopefully) become an alumni. Florida Guard is gone. (I only needed a few more action hours! sigh;) School is meh. My grades are still okay, but not where I'd like them. The motivation just isn't there anymore. I don't know. =\
Anyways, my original reason for writing this post...well, this blog...my Project 365. The new year is coming up soon. Should I start Day 1 with the new year? I want to. Maybe the mindset of the whole "it's a new year!" will subconsciously fix everything. haha. It might just work. My mind is weird. I haven't started on my homework; I really need to do that. And I didn't get a chance to make my website like I wanted. I kind of forgot with all this procrastination. xD I spend most of last week laying around and hanging out with my cousins, not wanting to do homework, thinking well...it is break, I should have some time to relax. But, of course, it wasn't really relaxing if I kept thinking about the things I needed to do. So I guess for now, the plan is to start my Project 365 with the start of the new year. If that fails, I'll start it when I'm off to college. That sounds like a good starting point to, plus I'll have more things to photograph, I think. I'm also getting a new lens sometime soonish. *sigh* no se, no se, no se sobre mi vida.