So I talked to Mr. Norman for a little bit earlier tonight. It's so hard not to tear up a little bit because it reminds me of TSA. Yeah, it's a little overemotional. I just miss having the responsibility and knowledge of hey, this is something I'm good at and can do on my own. It was something that not everyone else was in on, if that makes any sense. It wasn't just another activity to pass the time. I just have to keep reminding myself that I won't be able to actually dedicate myself to it. Any stress that it may bring would be so worth it; I just can't handle it.
With that already missing this year, I feel even more isolated with Kyle, Alex and Phil gone. Sure I can text or call or chat with them online but it's just not the same. It's the interactions throughout the school day and week that made time slow down yet pass by faster. It made life manageable. I really miss Phil. =\ Yes, even after all of the stupid ranting I've done about him. I still miss him incredibly. At this point, you can even accuse me of just missing the comfort, but I don't care. I miss him.
I'm being so emotional about the above two things, it's ridiculous. Anyways, aside from that, I should be working on a long overdue history assignment. I'm on page 5 out of the average 9/10? Not only that but it just hit me that I have an English test tomorrow which means I need to read a book and do the close reading. Even after all the work I did Friday and Saturday. Sigh; I'm glad I got to go bowling. It's the nap that killed me. I just wasn't feeling well. I had to go snooze. Well even after all of my productivity, I still can't help but think so much for trying to have a productive weekend. I still have so much to do. I really want to stay home tomorrow, but I shouldn't. I can't. Oh dear, and I have to face Spanish too. And a Math test! Oh aren't I going to be a happy camper tomorrow! Sigh. I shall try to collect myself and get this done.
With that already missing this year, I feel even more isolated with Kyle, Alex and Phil gone. Sure I can text or call or chat with them online but it's just not the same. It's the interactions throughout the school day and week that made time slow down yet pass by faster. It made life manageable. I really miss Phil. =\ Yes, even after all of the stupid ranting I've done about him. I still miss him incredibly. At this point, you can even accuse me of just missing the comfort, but I don't care. I miss him.
I'm being so emotional about the above two things, it's ridiculous. Anyways, aside from that, I should be working on a long overdue history assignment. I'm on page 5 out of the average 9/10? Not only that but it just hit me that I have an English test tomorrow which means I need to read a book and do the close reading. Even after all the work I did Friday and Saturday. Sigh; I'm glad I got to go bowling. It's the nap that killed me. I just wasn't feeling well. I had to go snooze. Well even after all of my productivity, I still can't help but think so much for trying to have a productive weekend. I still have so much to do. I really want to stay home tomorrow, but I shouldn't. I can't. Oh dear, and I have to face Spanish too. And a Math test! Oh aren't I going to be a happy camper tomorrow! Sigh. I shall try to collect myself and get this done.
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its all going to be ok kim. just as u said, we are a call/text away. you can do this. i know you can. i wish i could give more help that just saying you can do it, but i dont know how to help other give moral support. i know im not good at helping but i will always try my best once u ask.
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